Praying for God to provide
It's been a long winter. Most of it has been great! We were able to travel to the west coast and saw sites that I still dream about. However, lately I've really been praying for God to provide. I expected something grand, something miraculous. But, of course, that didn't happen. Here's the scenario: SOM (son of mine) #1 takes off out west, where the weather is always good, the sun shines most of the time and it's warm. Now, mind you, this is the son who – when we were looking for property – insisted on going north. Pennsylvania was too far south for him. He wanted to go skiing, trudge around in the snow, spend his day outside freezing his hands off while he worked around horses. Believe me, I've been there, done that. NO FUN!!!!!! Now, it so happened that we ended up moving north. Not because we were listening to SOM #1 but because we were following God. He's provided ever since.
But not the way I expected Him to.
So, continuing with the scenario. SOM #1 moves out west. We stay in the cold. That means there's wood to chop and bring in (we heat exclusively with wood, hey, we've got it all around us!!), the house to build, and hard, heavy chores to do. Lately, my poor husband comes home, tired from having to be super vigilant all afternoon while carting the school children from home to school and back. He's also been sick, passing it on to us and we were so kind as to pass it back to him :). What can I say? We're that kind of family!
I'm praying for God to provide, and He does it in His own wondrous ways. And lately that has been in the form of SOM #2. He's now 15 and has really stepped up to help. He's brought in the wood we need from the woodshed, he's been a mediator, a confidant, a friend. He's always been my little helper when it came to reading, and has been listening patiently to my stories.
The point is... (give me a second, here)... Oh right, the point is that God has provided. He didn't wave a magic wand and miraculously all the snow melted. Vermont didn't suddenly become warm and toasty so we don't need heat. God has made it so that SOM #2 has had to learn some responsibility and I have learned that SOM #2 is growing up just fine.
In my stories my characters experience God's provision. It's usually not at all the way they hoped it to be. For instance, in Love the Lord your God..., AJ hoped for God to take her away from her abusive father. The thing is, He did. But not in the way AJ expected. In the Skater Chronicles, Jacqueline has to experience the same thing. God can't be put into a box.
I have learned over and over again that God does provide and does it in a way that requires me to grow. Now, how inconvenient.
These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world. Jn 16:33
If you came up to me and asked what I do, I'd have to tell you that I'm a wife, mother and teacher. A writer? you ask. Wow. Now that is something I never thought I'd be. But through God, all things are possible.